23 May 2004

::: you wore me out :::

i tried my very best and you still could not find me.
i´m leaving you today.
i´ll be doing my dreaming somewhere else.
i´ll bury you underneath apricot blankets.
i´ll love you forever there.
i hope happiness finds you and showers you with candy stars.
i hope you´ll forever spin in love until love means nothing to you but the emptiness you left in me.

22 May 2004

::: [ ] :::

Tento enquadrar a tua imagem em algo que a possa definir.
Para que a minha alma tenha no que confiar.
E tu,
Tu teimas em não deixar ficar qualquer memória coerente.
Apareces-me como obra de arte, com mil e uma leituras.
A cada retorno entregas-te de forma diferente.
Conduzes-me a recantos de teu mundo que julgava inexistentes.
Entregas-me ingredientes que desconheço para a confecção de tais memórias.
Vivo então, na procura de outros mundos que se assemelhem com o teu.
Propagando a tristeza.
Para depois abafá-la na forma que tens de olhar-me.

::: from me to you :::

“The world was on fire
No one could save me but you.
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you

No, I don't want to fall in love
[This world is only gonna break your heart]
No, I don't want to fall in love
[This world is only gonna break your heart]
With you
With you
[This world is only gonna break your heart]

What a wicked game you play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do
To make me dream of you
And I don't wanna fall in love
[This world is only gonna break your heart]
No I don't want to fall in love
[This world is only gonna break your heart]
With you
Nobody loves no one”


Chris Isaak Lyrics

::: from you to me :::

Are you lonesome tonight?
do you miss me tonight?
Are you sorry we drifted apart?
Does your memory stray to a brighter sunny day
When I kissed you and called you sweetheart?
Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare?
Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there?
Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?

I wonder if you're lonesome tonight
You know someone said that the world's a stage
And each must play a part.
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.
Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue
Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange
And why I'll never know.
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me
And I had no cause to doubt you.
But I'd rather go on hearing your lies
Than go on living without you.
Now the stage is bare and I'm standing there
With emptiness all around
And if you won't come back to me
Then make them bring the curtain down.

Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?
Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?

(Words & music: Roy Turk / Lou Handman)

14 May 2004

::: Correction :::

My problem with compromise has nothing to do with faithfulness. Happily i have my conscience clean. But i have been betrayed. And it´s terrible. I still love them for all the good there was, and i forgave them once, but twice is something that doesn´t exist when someone betrays you.
Well, maybe i´ll change through the years (for better or for worse), but suffering because of someone else´s mistakes is one thing i don´t intend to do.

13 May 2004

::: i tried so hard :::

I still love them.
Every bit of me is made of every man i loved.
And i loved them all, even if in diferent ways.

12 May 2004

Vou indo. Ouvindo rádio.

Quero ouvir-te. Chega.
Tenho saudades tuas.
Não consigo andar assim, sem realmente saber se existes ou não. Porque só existirás se eu existir em ti. Vivo com este doce sentimento de que ainda te poderei abraçar.
Tu, que nem sei ao certo quem és.